one two three four five six seven

i'm coming for number five. can you guess which one that is? i know where they are. i can see them if i want to. it's a matter of timing.

rachel will tell me. and i need to lose these stupid bodyguards that keep following me around. big brother won't let them leave me alone.

it's time. i am going to prove to Daddy how strong i am.

i think i am maybe losing my mind. suddenly those codes that the others write with look so nice and easier to use than actual words. rachel says it's alright and that it's all part of the process. i kinda...forget what is going on. why am i doing this? what exactly am i doing?

i just need to be with him and Him and i'll be okay.

okay

i need to hurt someone. i feel so angry lately. this isn't my anger. is it my anger? am i this mad at someone? what exactly, who, celeste. that girl. and the flower girl. they know that man who makes my family so angry, i think.

i think maybe yes no yes rachel says it's a good idea okay i will do it.

soon.