Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Last week I went and decided to look at the woods where everything had happened. Everything was still very dead looking and when I stepped into the burned areas I felt like something was watching me. It creeped me out but I tried to keep looking in case there was a clue somewhere about my parents. For a while I didn't find anything. I was just walking around and moving dead plants to see the ground better. The whole time the feeling of being watched continued and I was about to go back home when I did find something.

It was my dad's eye patch. I don't know what this means but it's something. Maybe he isn't dead and he got away. Maybe that means that mom isn't dead either. I don't know but when I picked up the eye patch I started to feel really bad- like I was going to puke and my head started to hurt too. I don't know why my body reacted like this but I got out of there with the eye patch as fast as I could. Simon was upset that I had gone back without him and  told me I was being, "Irresponsible and risking my life" but if there's anyone who can find my parents it's me.

I hid the eye patch in my room and then went to bed. Nothing weird happened that night. I didn't have any nightmares and I didn't see any tall men in suits. In fact nothing bad has happened at all since that stomach ache at the field.

I did go to Leah's house Friday. Her mom and dad are really nice and acted very...careful around me. I guess they know that I had gone missing for over half a year and that my mom is missing now. I dunno, Simon says that the story about my family got a lot of news time. Anyway Leah and I just sort of hung out and talked a lot about school, the other students, likes and dislikes, hobbies, and life. It was nice, I guess, to talk to someone my age. I couldn't tell her everything but she seemed like she actually cared and just wanted to make sure I was okay. I think I can see Leah as a friend.

The therapist hasn't been much help really. I talk to her but she can't get anything out of me about what really happened. I told her I didn't want the hypnosis and Simon agreed because then I might have said something that got her in trouble.

Jade- We made sure not to let her do it. She understood and promised not to push the hypnosis.

Elaine- So I guess Morningstar wasn't a good guy after all? We all saw this coming so I don't know why  you trusted him after everything he's done...

Ridley- I'm not sure what that's all supposed to mean. Cryptic stuff is pointless and a waste of time.

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

The therapist is nice enough, I guess. Her name is Dr. Moore and she's trying her best to be friends with me which is nice. I can't tell her much- she keeps trying to figure out what happened to me when I was gone but I lie and say that it's all hard to remember. She says she wants to try some kind of hypnosis to help me "recall the memories" or something but I don't want her to know. I can't let another person find out about him and his minions.

She did say something that was good though. She said that I needed to get a hobby so that I wouldn't think of what happened but think about what's happening now. So I think I am going to talk to Simon about helping some of you guys. We wouldn't be able to do that much, maybe just let you stay at the house for a few days. I do wanna meet some of you guys after all. But it's up to Simon because it's his house.

I also am gonna try looking for Mom and Dad. I can't sit around and do nothing. They could be alive! And if they are I need to find them because they tried again and again to find me and save me. It's my turn to try and help them and you guys. Tomorrow after school I am gonna go over to the woods where the fire happened and look around. The police already checked a while ago but maybe I'll find something they didn't see...I hope.

The girls in class are still being mean to me. They boys don't really care as much, they just ignore me. Leah is still talking to me. Yesterday she invited me to hang out at her house for a while and I said no. But then she found a good time for when I would be free and even talked to Simon about me going over to her house. Simon agreed and told me later that it would be a good idea for me to hang out with Leah because I needed to talk to more "kids my age". I know he wants the best for me but I'm scared something bad will happen to Leah. I don't know. Whatever happens I am going over to her house Friday since I meet with Dr. Moore on Mondays and Thursdays.

I think I'm excited but nervous. What if I mess up and Leah hates me? Or what if she was planning on being mean to me this whole time? What if...she's one of them? And he finds me again... I have to stop thinking like this. It isn't normal and I don't wanna always be by myself.

Fleisch- I guess it is. Maybe it'll work better when I keep going to it.

Elaine- I read that you helped Morningstar. I hope you know what you're doing because I don't trust him at all. He hurt Kay and he wants to hurt me and my family. I don't like him.

Ridley- I can't trust you because you still work for him! He's still connected to you and that makes you bad.

Neo- I hope it helps me too. Thanks.

Friday, September 9, 2011


I finally agreed to let Simon find me a therapist last week. He says it's the best thing for me and I guess I kind of agree. I need to stop having these flashes so I can talk to other people without looking weird. And I know I'm kind of...messed up from staying with Redlight and him. I'm gonna start seeing them soon- some time this week probably. Apparently Simon will drive me to them after school between shifts or something.

Ryuu- I won't be able to tell them the whole truth, but I guess they might be able to help me calm down...

Fleisch- I could try collecting some things. Maybe it'll help take my mind off of thinking about some things. But thanks for the nice words.

Jean- I don't think that's a bad thing though. Mom liked girls and that was okay. I don't really think it's a mean thing, but I guess if some people say it it can be.

Grendel- Monster slayer? I don't really know what you're talking about but I do know you don't need to say things like that about me when you don't even know me.

Jade- I do like Batman. I liked reading and watching about Superheroes back before all of this happened. Thanks for telling me all of that- it helped to read. You're a very nice person.

Neo- Thanks. I'm not really sure if anyone is expecting me to do something, but I guess maybe people are hoping I won't go crazy again.

Numbers Man- Thanks I guess? Are you alright?