Wednesday, June 1, 2011

i think i am maybe losing my mind. suddenly those codes that the others write with look so nice and easier to use than actual words. rachel says it's alright and that it's all part of the process. i kinda...forget what is going on. why am i doing this? what exactly am i doing?

i just need to be with him and Him and i'll be okay.

okay

i need to hurt someone. i feel so angry lately. this isn't my anger. is it my anger? am i this mad at someone? what exactly, who, celeste. that girl. and the flower girl. they know that man who makes my family so angry, i think.

i think maybe yes no yes rachel says it's a good idea okay i will do it.

soon.

17 comments:

  1. maybe it's Him you are angry at. a lot of people are, you know.

    as for what you're doing, you're trying to regain your sanity. you wrote it down, remember? just look through your own blog, and you'll find the reason you forgot.

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  2. Don't lose your safety rope. Good luck, Kid.

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  3. i could never be angry at Him ryuu...and i can kinda remember that...

    i think i am okay, sagey. maybe? i don't know.

    will it really, chair?

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  4. Are you still drawing, Cynthia?

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  5. i am I AM it is very fun and it helps me stay calm. c:

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  6. Hang in there sweetie. *hug*

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  7. That is good to hear, Cynthia. Are you being given pencils and paper, or are you having to make due with other things?

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  8. thank you kay, you are always so nice to me. c:

    i take what i can find from stores. they never notice me so it's okay, matty.

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  9. Well, if you say so.

    Do your brothers and sisters like your art?

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  10. Hang in there kiddo. You'll get a little present from me tomorrow. It'll be in the white thermos, promise me that you'll drink all of it.

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  11. they are jealous of how well i can draw, matty. i am proud of all my pictures because they come out sooo much better than theirs, hehehehe

    robby i was going to drink it and then rachel said no. i'm sorry but she said big brother would not want me drinking it, so i hid it away instead.

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  12. Hahaha, I don't doubt it, Cynthia. What do you and your brothers and sisters usually draw?

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  13. they draw silly things, matty. pictures that don't make sense or numbers. and numbers aren't even drawings. :c

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  14. Awwww, that's disappointing.

    What about you, Cynthia? What do you like drawing picture of?

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  15. i like drawing pictures of my family. there's my mommy, my Daddy, my big brother, rachel, aunt thage and big sister ava. hehehehe i like our family pictures. i hang them up but the others usually tear them down.

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  16. Hey, Cyn. We haven't met yet, but I wanted to say hello, and to let you know that I'm cheering for you.

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