i think i am maybe losing my mind. suddenly those codes that the others write with look so nice and easier to use than actual words. rachel says it's alright and that it's all part of the process. i kinda...forget what is going on. why am i doing this? what exactly am i doing?
i just need to be with him and Him and i'll be okay.
i need to hurt someone. i feel so angry lately. this isn't my anger. is it my anger? am i this mad at someone? what exactly, who, celeste. that girl. and the flower girl. they know that man who makes my family so angry, i think.
i think maybe yes no yes rachel says it's a good idea okay i will do it.