Thursday, August 4, 2011

i can't do this anymore. i can't keep dealing with big brother aha, why am i even calling him that anymore, with Redlight. i can't keep feeling these urges to kill my...tony and kidnap mom. i can't let myself be kept by this monster for longer. i can't i can't i can't

there's a voice in the back of my head whispering to me, telling me to hurt other people and calling itself rachel. it's not rachel. it was never rachel. it's me. i think there's something wrong with me, something not even related to my "Daddy". my real dad, the crazy man who apparently stalked my mom, tortured my father figure, and was eventually killed, had issues that Daddy only needed to touch slightly to bring him under his control.

i'm his daughter, so i think i inherited some of those problems.

life is getting to be too much, y'know? and if i die Redlight won't be able to escape the thing that is chasing him, it will be able to trap him in one weak body and kill him. i think this is the best option. i have done nothing but hurt people and lead others to their death and i don't want that anymore.

it's time for me to go. i can do it. there's a bathroom in this place and of course there are plenty of weapons lying around that i can use.

i guess this is goodbye. i've had a good run. i hope the rest of you find a way to help my mom and dad, please.

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